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Fri, Apr. 16th, 2004 08:29 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
oyceterHaha! I am now a level 9 white mage.
I have also discovered the game is much more fun when one is playing with a group of people, as opposed to playing alone. I have also discovered that leveling is horribly addictive.
Being a white mage is good (all I do is stand around and cure people) because I very much hate running around and killing things. Too panicky for me, and then I spaz up and can't remember any of the keyboard commands again.
For other things, am confused about job issues again... the people at the bookstore really want me to stay and are offering to support me in starting a used bookstore in Taiwan, should I so want. Not that I really want to -- wrong environment, language difficulties, etc. But it is nice to be appreciated. They are also wondering if I can stay till June/July, because one of the buyers (we only have two left now) will be on vacation for a good three weeks. If I say yes, I will be trained as a buyer, which will be much more interesting than what I'm doing now. Unfortunately, I do not like the idea of committing to anything -- I have no idea about the timeline for the job search, because the market is just so unpredictable. Plus I feel bad because I have the career counselor person helping me out, and ... I don't know. I just feel bad making whiplash plan changes all of a sudden, either way. Argh. Truly, I am Vaughn the fence-sitter. This is quite horrid.
It's just very confusing, and I'm starting to like the people more (or feel more comfortable), and the thought of starting afresh yet again is scary, of course. But I also know this is not long-term for me now. It would be so handy if some fairy came down and told me: "This is the right choice. Go forth and follow the flowchart I have given you, and all will be well." That would be quite reassuring (not to mention slightly freaky and probably indicative of my losing my mind).
I have also discovered the game is much more fun when one is playing with a group of people, as opposed to playing alone. I have also discovered that leveling is horribly addictive.
Being a white mage is good (all I do is stand around and cure people) because I very much hate running around and killing things. Too panicky for me, and then I spaz up and can't remember any of the keyboard commands again.
For other things, am confused about job issues again... the people at the bookstore really want me to stay and are offering to support me in starting a used bookstore in Taiwan, should I so want. Not that I really want to -- wrong environment, language difficulties, etc. But it is nice to be appreciated. They are also wondering if I can stay till June/July, because one of the buyers (we only have two left now) will be on vacation for a good three weeks. If I say yes, I will be trained as a buyer, which will be much more interesting than what I'm doing now. Unfortunately, I do not like the idea of committing to anything -- I have no idea about the timeline for the job search, because the market is just so unpredictable. Plus I feel bad because I have the career counselor person helping me out, and ... I don't know. I just feel bad making whiplash plan changes all of a sudden, either way. Argh. Truly, I am Vaughn the fence-sitter. This is quite horrid.
It's just very confusing, and I'm starting to like the people more (or feel more comfortable), and the thought of starting afresh yet again is scary, of course. But I also know this is not long-term for me now. It would be so handy if some fairy came down and told me: "This is the right choice. Go forth and follow the flowchart I have given you, and all will be well." That would be quite reassuring (not to mention slightly freaky and probably indicative of my losing my mind).
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Sun, Apr. 18th, 2004 05:25 pm (UTC)I think I am going to end up sticking with my decision to not commit, the final sticking point being that I will be committing to three more months of shelving! Ugh.
At this point, going out and looking for a more business oriented job feels much less constricting than staying at the bookstore -- I mean, I don't want to give up the thought of owning my own bookstore, but I also don't think I'm ready for that now. Too much responsibility, too little flexibility in terms of career and in terms of moving around.
Sigh.
Thank you for the thoughts! I'm hoping things are still going well at work for you, and glad to hear that you've gotten a start on your garden again!