Probable heresy
Mon, Oct. 17th, 2005 09:25 pmI wasn't a frequent patron. I am, however, a frequent patron of Amazon and Borders (there are two of them which are closer than Kepler's). There's another indie bookstore down the street here that I do go to fairly often, and I am a very frequent patron of the local used bookstore(s).
Right around the back of the store was a giant area for posters and flyers, all very cool (I like browsing posters and flyers, never know what you might find), and there was one for California Independent Bookstores. I'm not actually sure if it should be all capitalized or what, but anyhow, they had a column of statistics comparing California indie bookstores with Amazon -- author signings, events, donations to charity, tax dollars -- all of which were supposed to convince me to patronize indie bookstores.
I felt a twinge of guilt. Despite having worked in an indie bookstore and generally wanting to support indie bookstores, I actually very rarely patronize any that aren't either a) used or b) two blocks away. I make my occasional trip to the Really Cool Sci-Fi/Fantasy Bookstore with the Hairless Cat (aka Borderlands) in San Francisco, but that's about it.
So herein is my bit of grumpiness about feeling guilty. I like Borders. I like having giant rows and rows of books. I like having a ginormous selection.
But even more than Border, there is Amazon. I like Amazon. I like Amazon a lot. Amazon remembers my Wishlist and ships me things and gives me random recommendations, most of which don't make sense. I can use Amazon for research. Also -- and this is the most important bit -- Amazon stocks almost any book in print that I want. It can be something that maybe .05% of the population will ever buy, but gorram it, it will be there, and I can get my grubby little hands on it, and no one at the register will look at me funny for buying a romance, YA, manga and the latest McKillip at the same time.
I know that one of the benefits of indie bookstores is supposed to be a greater sense of intimacy and whatnot, but a lot of the general indie bookstores I've been to rarely have that sense. I highly appreciate the fact that most of the general indie bookstores I've been to around here try to give employee recs, but I've never really come away from a general indie bookstore with the sense that I've discovered something that I otherwise would have overlooked. The sci-fi/fantasy section recs tend to be for Robert Jordan and Ender's Game, Ray Bradbury and Ursula K. LeGuin, authors and books that I've read of or heard of or both by the time I graduated from high school.
Plus, I always feel like a bit of an intruder. I'm very sure that a large part of this is because I try very hard to avoid eye contact and not talk to anyone, but another part is that I don't feel like I belong there. I get an immediate sense of warm fuzziness when I go to my (many) local yarn stores, even though no one there knows me personally, and when I go to the farmer's market, but not so much at the general indie bookstore. There is, of course, the warm fuzzy surrounded by books vibe, which is always present, but I feel it should be supplemented by an additional vibe or something...
What generally makes me feel disgruntled is that because general indie bookstores can't stock half as much as a Borders or an Amazon (which is understandable), they stint on genres that I like to read. Usually the selection of sci-fi/fantasy, romance, comics and manga, and other "unserious" reads get short shrift. I realize I am generalizing horribly, but it really gets to me. Especially the lack of romances. Most general indie bookstores that I've ventured into have miniscule romance sections, despite romance being a very high-selling genre.
Plus, when I do get to my little genre sections, I find that they have very few authors that I like. The romance sections invariably have the big names -- Nora Roberts, Amanda Quick/Jayne Ann Krentz, etc -- and almost never have the romance authors that I want to read. Ditto with the sci-fi/fantasy section. Usually it's a little better there, but still, there isn't much depth. The manga/comics section will have the big, serious authors like Gaiman and Moore and Miller, with Tezuka Osamu and some Akira thrown in, but no shoujo. And the crafts section is teeny.
I don't read what the people who run the stores seem to be promoting, my sections are being slighted, how am I supposed to feel like a part of the store?
And I hate that when I walk in there, I feel faintly marginalized. I like romances. I like shoujo manga. I like fantasy and sci-fi that's not necessarily "hard sci-fi" or "dark fantasy." I knit.
I dislike the fact that I get the feeling that anything too "fuzzy" is looked down upon. I'm quite sure the people running these bookstores don't feel like they are doing this (and kudos to them for running the bookstores; just because I feel out of place doesn't mean everyone does); I am quite sure that they promote general fiction written by women and women's studies and the like. But there on the outskirts, in the wild jungle that is genre, I tend to feel that it's still the conventionally masculine that is prized and upheld as art, while anything too cute or crafty or romantic continues to be sneered at. (insert general disclaimer here about fluffy not having to be feminine and vice versa and that I use the terms "masculine" and "feminine" in the stereotypical sense for the purpose of discourse and that usage does not indicate agreement)
I would like to say that this is only the impression that I tend to get from general indie bookstores (my old used bookstore included). The specialty bookstores that I go to (aka, my happy sci-fi/fantasy bookstore and my happy romance bookstore) I adore wholeheartedly and try to support as much as possible. The used bookstore that I used to work at used to not sell romances at all, despite a very large demand for them, and when I was buying, I'd often hear sneers about chick lit and romance. Luckily, the demand for such things has increased the selection so that I can find a good deal of things there. But I hate that attitude.
Anyway, I am done confessing. That's why I don't buy very much from Kepler's or Books Inc. I don't deliberately avoid them and I do actually try to buy things there when I can, but too often, they just never have what I'm looking for.
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