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Sat, Apr. 9th, 2005 09:32 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
oyceterHave been cleaning up the FL again, for assorted reasons -- fannish interests varying, some people are posting about topics that I'm finding personally painful (no fault of theirs, just what's been going on in my life recently), and it's gotten to the point where I'm skimming again and feeling too pressed for time.
I feel like there's been a lot of accumulated stress lately. And when I think about it, I feel like there's not that much to stress about, but for some reason, every day I'm just feeling tense. I don't think it's a meds thing, given that previously, tenseness would be coupled with panic attacks and fear. This is just... stress. And thinking about it again, I guess it does make sense. I mean, I feel like there's not that much to stress about now, but there's the big project at work that's nearing an end and is my first big project, so I desperately want it to go well. I'm still getting used to having a new roommate. Still getting used to having no boy anymore. Furniture is moving around, I'm trying to figure out my new schedule and lifestyle, etc. etc. Plus, therapy and meds. I guess these are all stress inducers? Sometimes it's hard to tell because nothing is overtly stressful, and yet, there is much change going on, and I guess this is how I relax.
I need to make a calm music CD to put in my car, because I've found myself putting Vienna Teng's "Harbor" on repeat for half the drive home just to get my shoulders to relax and for that feeling of weight to leave.
Last night, after feeling tense, I did what any normal person would do and headed over for Greek food and Borders with![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
fannishly. Didn't buy anything at Borders, but just wandering around stacks of books and flipping through them, just the aura of books was enough to make my mind slow down and relax. Truly it is what any normal person would do, I swear! ;)
It's very fun becausefannishly is getting her room in shape, and the bookshelves all went up today. I kept popping in to ogle at all the new books within my greedy grasp, and just the sight of bookshelf-lined walls made me feel good. And now I'm going to knit and watch TV, because knitting is nice and soothing.
I feel like there's been a lot of accumulated stress lately. And when I think about it, I feel like there's not that much to stress about, but for some reason, every day I'm just feeling tense. I don't think it's a meds thing, given that previously, tenseness would be coupled with panic attacks and fear. This is just... stress. And thinking about it again, I guess it does make sense. I mean, I feel like there's not that much to stress about now, but there's the big project at work that's nearing an end and is my first big project, so I desperately want it to go well. I'm still getting used to having a new roommate. Still getting used to having no boy anymore. Furniture is moving around, I'm trying to figure out my new schedule and lifestyle, etc. etc. Plus, therapy and meds. I guess these are all stress inducers? Sometimes it's hard to tell because nothing is overtly stressful, and yet, there is much change going on, and I guess this is how I relax.
I need to make a calm music CD to put in my car, because I've found myself putting Vienna Teng's "Harbor" on repeat for half the drive home just to get my shoulders to relax and for that feeling of weight to leave.
Last night, after feeling tense, I did what any normal person would do and headed over for Greek food and Borders with
fannishly. Didn't buy anything at Borders, but just wandering around stacks of books and flipping through them, just the aura of books was enough to make my mind slow down and relax. Truly it is what any normal person would do, I swear! ;)It's very fun because
fannishly is getting her room in shape, and the bookshelves all went up today. I kept popping in to ogle at all the new books within my greedy grasp, and just the sight of bookshelf-lined walls made me feel good. And now I'm going to knit and watch TV, because knitting is nice and soothing.
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Mon, Apr. 11th, 2005 11:21 am (UTC)