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[oyceter]

If you would like to file some sort of noise complaint against your neighbor, despite feeling extremely irritated and angry about the noise, it would probably be more conducive to write a nice, polite letter asking said neighbors to please stop the noise after a certain time rather than writing a very long, sarcastic, snarky letter about said noise. For some reason, being asked politely makes me want to help other people out more than being confronted sarcastically, particularly when it is the first time I am aware of the problem.

I've been too tired to write much in here lately, and too tired to respond much to comments. I'm vaguely disturbed by said tiredness, but not enough to actually do anything about it. I spend most of my time vegging out in front of the tv, playing with the rats and knitting. I feel rather like a lazy bum, but it just feels like my brain has been turned off for the past month or so. Hopefully things will get better once the boy moves out and Angela moves in, but then I shall have to deal with the snarky neighbors about moving noise. Sigh. I think I just feel very overwhelmed lately. Trying to go out and socialize with more people has been good, but also tiring, as has just thinking about dealing with my mom and the neighbors and the boy and everything. And I must remember to write a book review for the next Broadsheet.

It's strange. I can't tell if I am doing less LJ because I am calling more people now and feel less of a need to socialize via LJ or just because my brain feels like it has been permanently turned off. I should keep reminding myself that even though the boy and I have been broken up for a month now, it still takes getting used to, and there is still a ton of change going on in my life in terms of moving, meeting new people, giant shift in life plans, etc.

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[thinkum]

my brain feels like it has been permanently turned off

That's usually a sign for me, that my medication isn't quite doing its job. You might want to drop a call to your MD, and see if he/she thinks adjusting your current treatment might be helpful to you.

I can't tell if I am doing less LJ because I am calling more people now and feel less of a need to socialize via LJ

If so, more power to you. I really enjoy reading your LJ entries, but calling more people is excellent -- you're dealing with a ton of stressors right now, and I'm very impressed with how well you're dealing. Go, you! ;-)

[oyceter]

Hrm, I didn't think of it as a meds thing! Must consider. It's strange though -- I'm tired, but on a lower dose, it was even worse. So I can't tell if it's the meds or if it's just being really stressed out.

And thank you ^_^.

[oyceter]

Haven't considered mono, but it feels more like a mental and emotional tiredness than an actual physical reaction.

[masqthephlsphr.livejournal.com]

Wow, am I out of the loop. I didn't even realize you'd broken up.

[oyceter]

Yeah, I haven't exactly been trumpeting it from the roofs, heh.

[masqthephlsphr.livejournal.com]

Sorry to hear about that. Hope things are all right.

[oyceter]

Oh well. Things are all right, given the circumstances. Thanks.

[rachelmanija.livejournal.com]

What? Angela's moving in? But then you're moving anyway? Are you going to keep being roommates, then?

[oyceter]

I dunno, it's confusing. Right now Angela is moving in and the boy is moving out, since my lease lasts till end of June. But she's going back to school in Sept., and she's still deciding if she will stay in the apartment or move out to live in the dorms. If she moves out, then either I will have to find a new roommate, or move out of the current apartment since it's too expensive for just me.

[bhadrasvapna.livejournal.com]

Oyce hon

Call your doc. Either you are overmedicated or more likely undermedicated or improperly medicated. I now know way too much about meds than I ever thought possible without being an actual doctor. If you are interested in researching anti-depressants, I recommend two sites:
http://www.crazymeds.org (I really like this site. It has a great sense of humor) the other more formal and probably more informative is http://rxlist.com

Another thing is it is really hard to separate out environmental factors and clinical ones. It is so easy to blame how you are feeling on events. The heavens know I used to do this. I put my friends through hell and back again because of this. Now I know even if I am triggered by events, my mind has a mind of its own and takes off running. This is not their fault. It is not my fault. It is just a fact of my existence like my hair color or that I like Buffy.

To deal with the another thing and just for contact with others so we don't feel so alone, I recommend two groups. The first is NAMI, the National Alliance for the Mentally Ill. If you go to their website http://www.nami.org there is a link to find support groups near you. Another organization that provides assistance with mood disorders is DBSA, Depression Bipolar Support Alliance. Their website http:/www.dbsalliance.org also has a support group link. It also has a chat room. There are tons of chat rooms through all sorts of places. I have found them to be of great help.

[oyceter]

Thanks for the links. I'll bring up the tiredness with my therapist, but it is rather difficult telling if it's medication or not, given that every so often this would happen in the past.

check your msgs

[(Anonymous)]

hey oycee,

i called you and left a message or two. i'm here for you and you can call me if you want to talk....or just sigh into the phone. i had no idea all this was going on. i'll try calling again soon. *hugs*

(anlee)