LJ awkwardness

Siiiigh. I keep doing this, but I think I need to trim my friends list again. No, not trim. Halve =(. I've just been feeling incredibly overwhelmed by things, and then I feel guilty when people post good discussions on LJ and I'm not able to follow them because I'm too tired. I've been really skimming over everything for the past few months now; I don't comment much anymore just because I haven't been paying enough attention to really say anything. Also, just the act of skimming makes me feel even more hurried and pressured, and then I feel like I have even less energy and less time to actually think about things. And I don't particularly like interacting that way.

And before people mention the filter thing -- I tried doing filters, and I just don't like them. They don't really work for me, because I personally know that there are more posts to read, and that makes me feel worse that I'm skipping them.

This is, of course, my desperate and rather selfish attempt to avert drama, because some people will inevitably be hurt in the process, despite nearly everyone on LJ's attempts to separate friendship from the friends list. It's hard to, and I apologize in advance, because even having someone say that they still like you as they decide not to read your posts on a daily basis (or... every other day, if you're me) isn't easy at all. But yes, if you are on my reading list, now or in the past, it is because I enjoyed reading you and knowing you and that being taken off doesn't mean that I have suddenly stopped liking you.