In which I am exceedingly sappy

Because I am feeling all big-thought-have-y today.

(Hee, I mock how much the Buffyverse has influenced my speech patterns.)

Now that I am well (er, more accurately, better and on the path to being well I think), mentally, I've been sort of thinking about what I want to get out of life. Whoa, yes, ginormous topic indeed! Part of it I guess has been fueled by job satisfaction (ironic), part from being happy about what I have and part from gratefulness of how things have been going lately and from a desire to do something to pass along the good fortune, because I often feel like I don't deserve it. And who is to say that someone deserves something or not, because part of me thinks that everyone deserves health and happiness and well-being. And when I say that, I mean not that they can do anything to get it, but that I wish it for them. The other part of me thinks that I don't deserve it, because I haven't done anything or worked particularly hard or anything. But you know, since I am in a fairly good place right now, I feel it should be passed on, just because I have a renewed appreciation of just how hard it is to get to this kind of place.

And a lot of it is having had my life crumple in front of my eyes in a mere two years and now being at a place to rebuild and reconnect.

( So, some things I want out of life (warning, this is really sappy): )