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anniesj.
It's finally sinking in that I'm graduating and leaving this place. It's also not helping that it's cold and gray outside, and that all non-senior people are starting to pack up and leave the campus.
*wails*
I hate packing and moving and leaving places, and it makes it worse this year because I'm not coming back. Ever, probably, except for a few short vacation days. Unlike moving from high school, in which I go home every summer and winter vacation, so I don't end up missing Taiwan too much. And my brain is just starting to compile stupid lists of what I'll not do again, like convenience-store-runs, the dinky mall mall, hanging around the boy's dorm room, my club. And there are all these things I have to do, like pack up my stuff (which always depresses me), return all my library books (reminding me of all the classes I never got to take) and try very hard not to think about everyone leaving and going to different places.
So instead of thinking too hard about this, I will rewatch Chosen and channel all the sadness into Buffy, which will at least give me a catharsis with character deaths and happy endings, instead of thinking about how life just keeps going and keeps making me leave people. Obviously, am not in the most cheerful or optimistic of moods today.
Maybe eventually I'll even get around to writing an essay on choice and free will in Chosen.
anniesj.It's finally sinking in that I'm graduating and leaving this place. It's also not helping that it's cold and gray outside, and that all non-senior people are starting to pack up and leave the campus.
*wails*
I hate packing and moving and leaving places, and it makes it worse this year because I'm not coming back. Ever, probably, except for a few short vacation days. Unlike moving from high school, in which I go home every summer and winter vacation, so I don't end up missing Taiwan too much. And my brain is just starting to compile stupid lists of what I'll not do again, like convenience-store-runs, the dinky mall mall, hanging around the boy's dorm room, my club. And there are all these things I have to do, like pack up my stuff (which always depresses me), return all my library books (reminding me of all the classes I never got to take) and try very hard not to think about everyone leaving and going to different places.
So instead of thinking too hard about this, I will rewatch Chosen and channel all the sadness into Buffy, which will at least give me a catharsis with character deaths and happy endings, instead of thinking about how life just keeps going and keeps making me leave people. Obviously, am not in the most cheerful or optimistic of moods today.
Maybe eventually I'll even get around to writing an essay on choice and free will in Chosen.
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