sigh

[oyceter]

Just came back with a meeting with my advisor. And well, it wasn't totally bad. She likes my third chapter, but I really need to get moving. And now, of course, I am regretting the wasted past week. But I guess that's just how the story goes. And it is almost complete, except for the 5-8 page conclusion -- it's just very ugly and messy.

The entire time, she keeps telling me that I need more structure and more organization. Even the comment on my final body chapter, the one that I thought was all structured, comes with advice about structure and how the chapter reads a bit like stream of consciousness. And here I was actually trying too! I know I need it to be tidy, but I have no idea how to do it! I've never done anything remotely as big as this in my life (previous record, page-wise, somewhere around 30 pages... this baby's already up to 82, pre-conclusion and editing). And just argh.

So after work and Angel tonight (no way I am skipping my TV show because I am just that sad), I will stay up and work very hard on the whole thing, maybe draw it out? I have no idea how to do any of this. I will be good and not read LJ, despite the temptations. And damnit, I will have stuff by Friday to give to her.

I'm so ready for this to be over and done with.