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And another happy thought: I think I'm not depressed anymore. It's hard to be sure, but that's how it feels. I realized it today when I was calling up the insurance company to make arrangements and file claims and all that other nasty stuff. Me. I called them up and calmly discussed all this. I did not break into tears. I didn't freak out and make the boy do it. I didn't particularly want to do it, but I had to, and I got the ball rolling. It sounds like such a silly, inconsequential little thing, but it was one of the hardest things about being depressed (well, that and the whole being depressed and screaming and miserable and hurting bit).

I'm almost scared to point it out, for fear that I'll simply relapse again. It feels like finally being able to breathe again, not realizing that the entire time I had had this giant weight on my chest. I had almost forgotten what it was like, not being anxious and worried and stressed about everything, about my own competence. This is nice. I hope this lasts.

Addendum, in case I am sounding too Pollyannish these days (I am just so overwhelmingly grateful that I am ok and that the other guy is ok that I am cycling through being extraordinarily happy and really really scared about driving) -- I am still kicking myself in the head because I forgot the hardcover library sale was today and I missed it! Argh.

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Very strange. The boy and I were coming home and passed by the dumpster of our apartment (in the basement by the parking). And sitting right there were two perfectly good suitcases. Nice size too -- small enough to take on board, but with wheels. Well, one was (it also had a frying pan inside it). The other was a little bigger for longer travel, with another little one inside it. The handles to some of the zippers have fallen off, and all three are a little worn, but still perfectly good. I have no idea why someone just threw them away.

So... is it morally wrong to take them? I guess it's possible that people just left them there and may want them back, but... they were right next to the dumpster.

Anyhow, I took all of them, seeing as how I don't have a suitcase that size, and suitcases are really expensive. But I'm still quite baffled.