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oyceterFeel vaguely guilty for the fit of self pity previously. Also feel guilty for spending money at Borders right after the meeting purely to cheer myself up. Ended up buying Sorcery and Cecelia (it looks like it will be a comfort read) in hardcover instead of waiting for the library hold to come through or waiting for the paperback to come out. Or even waiting for it to show up at the store. I feel guilty.
Feel even more guilty about being lax about the job search and moving lately. So tired. Tired isn't even the right word, even though I am a perpetual insomniac. I feel weary, like everything is dragging me down, like there are lead weights attached to me. My mind's in a fog, my body is tired, and the spirit is feeling pretty down.
A few things keeping me going: books and book recs (it's sort of an imaginary land my brain can rest in now, far removed from this world), the rats (who could care less if I got a job or not, as long as I fed them and scritched their backs), the boy, and LJers.
Sometimes I wonder what it means when most of what's keeping you going is not of the "real world."
I really need to read a Crusie book. Or watch season 6 of Buffy... both are comforting in very different ways. Crusie's appeal is pretty obvious, but S6 is also helpful for catharsis. As I've probably said before, I over-identify with Buffy to a huge degree in S6. Maybe I should whip out Two to Go/Grave and have a total sobfest (the yellow crayon scene).
Was skimming through the manga shelves at Borders, checking for more manga publishers. Unfortunately, looks like no more are around the Bay Area =(. I was rather pleasantly surprised (and shocked out of aforementioned self-pitying) when I turned from the one bookshelf I'd been scanning to notice four more behind me! I remember writing in my thesis a year ago how manga was finally fulfilling the hype of 1999 (Pokemon frenzy and Princess Mononoke) because I had seen two bookshelves at the Borders in Princeton. When I wrote it, I was wondering if I had been exaggerating, especially in my point that they had the same amount of shelf space as the graphic novels did. Apparently I was not exaggerating at all!
Feel even more guilty about being lax about the job search and moving lately. So tired. Tired isn't even the right word, even though I am a perpetual insomniac. I feel weary, like everything is dragging me down, like there are lead weights attached to me. My mind's in a fog, my body is tired, and the spirit is feeling pretty down.
A few things keeping me going: books and book recs (it's sort of an imaginary land my brain can rest in now, far removed from this world), the rats (who could care less if I got a job or not, as long as I fed them and scritched their backs), the boy, and LJers.
Sometimes I wonder what it means when most of what's keeping you going is not of the "real world."
I really need to read a Crusie book. Or watch season 6 of Buffy... both are comforting in very different ways. Crusie's appeal is pretty obvious, but S6 is also helpful for catharsis. As I've probably said before, I over-identify with Buffy to a huge degree in S6. Maybe I should whip out Two to Go/Grave and have a total sobfest (the yellow crayon scene).
Was skimming through the manga shelves at Borders, checking for more manga publishers. Unfortunately, looks like no more are around the Bay Area =(. I was rather pleasantly surprised (and shocked out of aforementioned self-pitying) when I turned from the one bookshelf I'd been scanning to notice four more behind me! I remember writing in my thesis a year ago how manga was finally fulfilling the hype of 1999 (Pokemon frenzy and Princess Mononoke) because I had seen two bookshelves at the Borders in Princeton. When I wrote it, I was wondering if I had been exaggerating, especially in my point that they had the same amount of shelf space as the graphic novels did. Apparently I was not exaggerating at all!
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Re: Women's history, feminism, etc, East Asia
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